Tuesday, May 18, 2010

(((Lessons, Learned...{{Still Your Fault}})))

 May 8, 2010


Oh, my friend
all things must come to an end
By choice, or circumstance
One day, I'll be your friend again. 


Not good lovers, when you've always been 
hiding under the covers
Scared of something, but I don't know what
I guess it's too late now, 
You've already called my bluff


Not choosing sides, Never take your friends
down with you
No ultimatums; No option in choices
My mind is free, 
and clear
And 
Maybe someday your will be too


Only wishing you the best of all things
to come,
Nothing to be ashamed of now, 
So just put down your gun.
The warmth that it makes 
You'll find for your heart, one day
The pain that it brings, 
One day, you'll put away

Logistically, you'll survive
As long as you tilt your hat to the sun
and you try. 
Prosperity and wealth, I wish you those things
But don't become blinded 
by the ways you have seen in me.

Maybe you'll take this as a lesson;
Maybe you won't  

I hope that your arrogance and 
your ignorance
Don't tie another knot in your rope
With open arms, you were welcomed 
and proved, at first to be fit to stay...

Lonely days
Lonely nights
And Sexless, senseless existance
Had accumulated and 
they all pushed you and I
further away


Don't bang your head
Don't ball your fist;
Don't swing too hard
Aimed to hit the wall 
and missed
A broken hand, 
a busted mind
Oh, your personal hell had begun 
To become mine.


Conflicting souls,
in flame-less fire,
Your wall you were constructing
Broke me free, of desire
Longing, unto despair
turned into nights spent
Not Here.


You were pushing 
and i was moving back
No resistance ,
no resistance in the shell 
I know your resistance --
                          It was displayed so well.
Now, badly I feel
that you were drug along
for all this time
I walked into a dark abyss
And you followed, walking blind.


time to untie you from me
The caged bird sings to be free
Never captive; never - 
I was the only one 
who could please me.


So, my demons are back in the closet
With the skeletons
and the shadows
Because the closet's empty now,
And I have more room for error.


Apologies, cordially
I'm sorry the road led to here.
I knew where it was leading 
And you followed, walking blind
And for that, I didn't shed any tears


Sorry for a lot
And not sorry for much more
You were a ticking time bomb
And I was the wrecking ball...




 

Copyright 2010 K. Anne Smith

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