Monday, January 3, 2011

In December...

For those - 
                    Who are never satisfied - 
Who are finicky and particular
and selfish-
"Good Luck."
 Because the only other type of person
Who could tolerate that
Is someone who is 
                                  Just Like You.
And THAT,  is merely a race (against time)
to see who gets to the pistol and the shovel first
to cross the finish line.



Copyright 2010  K. Anne Smith

Sunday, January 2, 2011

a very random, positive thought...


Arlo Guthrie; From Corbis.com




You meet some people
in life
That could never be showcased
to everyone
Or placed as First in Rank
But they always remain;
The aura of them lingers
And the perfect place
to keep them-
Is not in a frame; as a picture; as a moment captured-
They stay, retained
Within your heart.




Copyright 2010  K. Anne Smith

Friday, December 31, 2010

On the night of Christmas...



    I knew that I had to leave, and soon. I felt a precursor of embarrassment coming on. Not that it was me that cared so much; but I just may embarrass him. Why? Because I am often more outspoken; more silly, than he is. So, I gathered myself and went outside to have a smoke, or two. let the December wind lash my face, and perhaps sober me up a bit. 
   
We were out in the country, far from most everyone else. The falling snow was perfect in some spots. Glistening, and untouched, glittering under the light of the moon. I felt that i should take a picture. Instead, I finished my smoke, my drink and walked back inside; hoping that I didn't give away too much of what I was thinking...


Copyright 2010 K. Anne Smith

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Unsent Note to A Random Person...

 ****************************YOU are not as good as you think you are. You are extremely average, insecure and troubled; just like the rest of us. And I cannot attempt to help you help yourself without you acknowledging this.  ***

And Yes, There Was A Day 3 of Mental Health Day...should have declared it a Mental Health Week...

9-9-2010  


 Day 3 of "FUCK".
Simply put, that's it; "FUCK".
Tired of being broke, tired of not sleeping, tired of feeling worthless, of not having someone to balance me out; help to motivate me.
And I need a cigarette.
Oh, wah. Listen to me.  Passing shit off onto other folks.
Jesus, what is going on here? I feel so unbalanced -
in life,
In everyday.
In the brain.
Fuck.



Copyright K. Anne Smith


A DAy Late, and A dollar (or more) short.

                A DAy Late, and A dollar (or more) short...


I've declared today as my own personal "Mental Health Day".
I remember dog-eared pages in a book;
sent to me by a person that
I have never met
(in person)
Maybe my fate will be the same.
I'll get famous when I am dead.
It happens to the best, that way....
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

BUKOWSKI
Had his own way of putting things
into senseless, yet priceless lines.
The sky draws in a deeper, darker color of blue, white, tinged with red.
Like a suction canister of body fluids, from an operating room.
Tinged with blood.
Breeze, like breath, and the colors move into deeper shades; closing in on us like a fist. When the fist closes, it smashes down and makes thousands and thousands of pieces of glowing shrapnel that we call stars...
And at that time, when it comes - I hope it brings a sense of calm -
and silence -
and nothing else.
_______________________________________________________________________________

Mental Health Day Notes, cont.



I've sat in this spot
most of the day
And I think
how amazing
that someone, somewhere, was doing what I have done all day
But made something out of nothing
And I've got nothing to show for it.




Copyright K. Anne Smith

The Doh-See-Doh swing...

Two Step;
side step
You're avoiding Life (and my eyes)
So I think it's good
That I Leave for awhile
So I can turn up the music
and drive as I smile
And leave you to your misery
Don't understand why you
don't appreciate little things
The sun in the sky
The beauty of ugly
and birds when they sing


Copyright K. Anne Smith